Thursday, April 23, 2009

This week

My little man covered in snot, slobber, and lipstick. Even with his imperfections, I love him completely. Even with my imperfections, he loves me completely. I am so glad! How much more does our Father in Heaven love us with our imperfections? Aren't you glad he does? This week has been a week of learning and seeing God at work first hand. I have learned to rejoice over the smallest things, the big things, and even the bad things that happen in life. It is like a light came on this week and so many things became even more clear to me. I began the week dreading Tuesday morning, when Keira would begin her school morning of crying and drama, for the 3-4 week now. So, Sunday evening I decided to begin praying about it and turn it over to the Lord. Tuesday morning rolls around and yes, she does say she doesn't want to go to school, but with no crying or drama. I kept talking to her about different things and kept about our business of getting ready. I take her and leave and no crying. I thanked God! I know the importance of prayer and how we are commanded to pray, but I am guilty of not praying for things I should (the little things, or so I think they are) and just how powerful prayer is. I guess my point is that I am so sporadic about praying for minor things, that I often overlook that I should take every single thing in my life to the Lord. I saw the Lord work on wed. on a lady a friend and I met at the park. While our kids are playing, I keep feeling like I should ask her to church. My friend even leaned over and whispered to me "I am going to ask her to church" Well, she never did either. My melancholy introvert self sits and debates how to do this and when. I tell myself I will, but later. I hope she will bring it up. I keep coming up with excuse after excuse of why I shouldn't bring this up, thanks Satan for filling me with lies. But, God intervens and my friend is leaving and says "I will see you all at church tonight" The lady doesn't hesistate and asks about our church and we talk and talk. Long story short, she comes and brings her 2 kids. Here is the kicker : the pastor has been doing a 1 Peter series on wed. evenings but changes his sermon for that evening. He has no clue what transpired at the park earlier in the day and even said he struggled with changing his sermon. I truly believe this sermon was meant for her, she cried during it and then got to talk with someone after. She said she would be back on Sunday. How amazing is this??? Nothing we did, it was all God. For us to go to the park on that day and for her to be there, all the Lord's work. I had even asked Keira if she wanted to eat at sonic or take it to the park, she chose the park. I saw the Lord work, even though I was unwillingly at the time to do what He was leading me too. I have had this happen before and felt like I should say something to someone, but always hold back. You just don't understand how hard it is for me to open up and begin a conversation with strangers. But I learned a huge lesson in this. I am going to try and be more aware of leaning on the Lord in this situations and start praying right then in that situation and not debate myself and my weaknesses. God does use us despite our imperfections! I have learned after reading some Christians responses this week to certian points made, regarding abortion, religion, economy, etc. that it boils down to this for me : My opinion and anyone elses amounts to squat compared to God's Holy Word. It doesn't matter what I think about abortion(for example) or anyone else for that matter, it only matters what God says. Bottom line. God's Word is Law. I believe with my whole heart the Doctrine of Election - the more I read the Bible, the more I see it everywhere. I am thankful for my family. They are my blessings in this life. I am thankful for new girlfriends I have made at church and am in the process of making with pre-school mom's. I have decided that I am going to make the time to hang out with these women and get to know them better. The Lord ha put them in my life for a reason. I look forward to more girl time. I have decided that our family will have our friends and their kids over this spring and summer, instead of just talking about it, like we did last year. I want my kids to grow up knowing our home is always open for visitors. I have decided to pray more to be an outreach for Jesus, instead of relying on knowing that He is in control, sovereign, and election. Afterall, the Bible commands it :) Photobucket src="http://i147.photobucket.com/albums/r306/awages/Signatures/LeffewSign.jpg" border=0>
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Renea said...

How cool is that? What a wonderful opportunity. I completely understand how hard it is to open up to people--I deal with that a lot too.